Why do you write?

People ask me what I want to do and they seem surprised when I say “Write”. Why? Because apparently people look at me and see someone who is smart, who can do all these things, and who can “command” a room. That’s not true. The truth is, I may be smart–but I’m not as smart as everyone thinks. I can command a room, but not with power or interest.

You see, ever since I was little I had a simple idea of what I wanted to do “I want to make a difference. I want to save people.” It seems simple enough–there’s so many things to do. So I tried. I tried to be a biochemist–to dabble in it in hopes of becoming a cancer researcher. Well, it turns out I’m rather shit at science. Honestly horrible. I pass classes only by studying my ass of, but quite honestly I’m terrible at most anything that has to do with actual scientific testing. Plus it has a lot of math sometimes and I suck at math. I can barely do arithmetic in my head.

So I thought, maybe I’ll become a psychologist. Sadly, I apparently am not good at talking to people. Well, at least in the way psychologist’s should. I understand them, but I’m really bad at actually listening and giving helpful advice…or so I’m told. Besides, I get too sad listening to others problems. It hurts me to see other people’s pain so intimately.

Well, then what if I did something else? A doctor! I can be a doctor. Too bad hospitals freak me out and to be honest, I don’t think my own mind would allow me to be a doctor. Plus I won’t lie to you…I’ve never given it an honest try because I sucked so bad at anything that requires deep concentration and a steady hand (I’m a natural klutz).

So then I realized I was having a problem. How can I help someone when all that I tried I was either not good enough at, just plain out got bored with? I was at a complete loss. Everyone was telling me I could do anything and yet I knew it wasn’t true because I did have limitations in my own skills. What was I to do? What could I possibly do to “save” people and make a difference? Write.

It took me a while to come to this conclusion, but I’d always been writing–ever since I was a kid (y’know–on the walls with crayons). So my solution was staring at me in the face. I, who raved about stories that changed my life. I, who always was inspired to write down what I saw around me. I–I could be a writer. All of a sudden, I realized that stories, art–they can make a difference. They can make someone feel not so alone, they can inspire, can heal. Stories have this beautiful power of being able to be whatever you make them. Which is why I decided that I wanted to write stories; beautiful stories, powerful stories, stories that showed the good and the bad of life. Stories that came from somewhere deep and showed a part of the human experience.

Ever since I came to this conclusion, I’ve been able to proudly tell people “I want to be a writer” and when they ask I can tell them easily “because I want to make a difference. I want to write stories that’ll touch people. That’ll give them hope or make them feel less alone.” Because I may not be good at math or science or talking in great crowds, teaching, or more, but that doesn’t mean I can’t change someone’s life. No matter what you do, you can always change someone’s life. Maybe not in the obvious ways, but even just the smallest.

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NaNoWriMo (and queries)

November is here~ and it’s the most wonderful time of the year.

Well, perhaps not the MOST wonderful but certainly an enjoyable time. Having finished up the last round of self-edits on my novel, I decided to do NaNoWriMo this year and I’m really excited about my story. It’s a nice break from fantasy as I dive into a paranormal gothic period piece. It’s a story I’ve been thinking of writing for a good five months but had to sideline since I was focused solely on my fantasy series (and getting it ready to submit).

I’ve never really written a ghost story before–or anything with a gothic background–and so far it’s been an interesting experience. I love writing a multitude of genres but I’ve been so deep into fantasy the past few years that I’ve really forgotten what it’s like to write something else for a change. It’s been fun to explore more of the writing world though and it’s definitely something I recommend. Try not to get set into one genre–try to explore them all! Or at least a reasonable amount of them (okay at the least try more than one). I really hope to finish it by the end of the month but we’ll see. So far I’ve been strangely busy (normally I’m not this busy). I think it’s just the after con hangover. Oh. I haven’t mentioned that yet but I plan to write a blog post on it (and if you follow my instagram you probably already know). I staffed/enjoyed an anime convention over Halloween weekend and it was such a great experience. I love conventions, but more on that at a later time.

Ah! I should probably also update you guys a little on book and writing stuff (since, you know, this blog was originally for book updates haha). So two things. The first is that I had a piece of flash fiction published in Splickety Publishing group’s magazine Havok (their Halloween edition). If you have time you should go read it! There’s a lot of other great authors featured in it as well and it’s a really fun issue.  The second this is that since editing is finished, I’ve looked into and compiled a list of agents to query for my book. All I need to do is finish writing all the queries and cross my fingers. It’ll probably take some time but I’m hopeful–you always have to be hopeful.

So that’s about it for now. This was a very short update! Is anyone else doing NaNoWriMo? I’d love to hear about it if so!

Don’t forget to seek out adventure!

xxx

 

Writer Talk & Sake

You know what every good writer needs every once and a while? Another writer to talk to.

–And alcohol. Mostly the alcohol.

The other day I went on a nice excursion to the mall with my fellow writer friend and we enacted that terribly stereotypical and entirely accurate depiction of girls going shopping for fun. We did and we shopped a ton. I really don’t remember the last time I’ve shopped so much (mostly cause of the lack of money [yeah totally becoming that other stereotype of the broke author]). I normally go window shopping and this time I actually bought quite a few bits and pieces and spent most of the day shopping. Of course this was fine since I was supposed to be resting my wrist from typing anyway.

Anyway, so after shopping we decided to get some food to eat and talk about writing. We went to a Japanese restaurant we frequent and ordered a bunch of appetizers and one other we really needed: SAKE. Got ourselves a tiny bottle and started drinking it before our food even came. It’s probably not best to feed into the stereotype of the struggling writer always drinking but in this moment of weakness we definitely did.

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Over our drinks and food we had a nice talk about each other’s stories. We had a nice talk about what our favorite part of our books was. The funny thing was, though we could each pinpoint exactly what our favorite part in each other’s books, we honestly couldn’t figure out our favorite parts in our own work. Perhaps because we are too close to our writing to be able to pick anything that particularly stands out…

Still, I thought it odd we couldn’t find the best in our own work so I decided it should be our task (or homework if you wish) to think about our favorite part. I think it’s important that authors are able to distinguish the one moment in their own book that they liked the most–whether for description, dialogue, feeling, or action. It’s nice to be able to think “ah, that was good”. Creators of anything really need to be able to be humble as well as look at their own work and see what is great about it.

So, now you know my homework for the week. I’m going to think hard on what I believe my favorite to be. So for whoever is reading this, I task you with the same homework: What is your favorite part of something you’re working on?

Don’t forget to seek out adventure!

xxx

Nye Beach & Character Names

This past weekend some of my friends and I decided it was time for a coast trip due to one of their birthday’s. Out of all the beach towns we chose to stay at, we chose Newport. I hadn’t been to Newport for at least ten years. When we arrived and walked to the beach, I was amazed that the name of the beach was none other than Nye. Why was I surprised though? Well you see, one of my protagonists is named Nye and I never really knew where I got the name from. I thought up the character back in Elementary school and his name had always been set in stone. So…I suppose that makes sense actually. Most likely I named him after the beach that I had so many happy memories of. It is a little strange though that even as a child I unconsciously chose a Welsh name for a character. I suppose that just means I’ve really always been fascinated with Wales and all things Welsh.

Aside from the strange name revelation, my friends and I had a lovely time. We walked up and down the beach, collected stones, drank some mead, and even went to the Oregon Aquarium (if you’re ever there, the shark tunnel is a must). At the aquarium entrance you take a picture of your group and have the option to purchase it later. We ended up doing this only because our picture was so epic that it made the aquarium staff laugh (anime poses always work). Overall, our days at the beach were a complete success. It was a nice end to the summer and a good getaway from the city. Plus I managed to get quite a few pictures of signage that said “Nye beach”. My fellow author friend and I couldn’t stop making jokes while thinking of my character. As we left the beach we waved to it saying “Bye Nye” (I’m pretty sure we’re the only people who think we’re funny).

In addition there was a stretch of beach that reminded us of my fellow writer friend’s own book (which I’ve read). If you want to check out her author site here it is: https://minaeverse.wordpress.com/welcome-to-verses/

Well, I think that’s about it for now. Does anyone else have any interesting character name origin stories? I’d love to know.

Don’t forget to seek out adventure!

xxx