Why do you write?

People ask me what I want to do and they seem surprised when I say “Write”. Why? Because apparently people look at me and see someone who is smart, who can do all these things, and who can “command” a room. That’s not true. The truth is, I may be smart–but I’m not as smart as everyone thinks. I can command a room, but not with power or interest.

You see, ever since I was little I had a simple idea of what I wanted to do “I want to make a difference. I want to save people.” It seems simple enough–there’s so many things to do. So I tried. I tried to be a biochemist–to dabble in it in hopes of becoming a cancer researcher. Well, it turns out I’m rather shit at science. Honestly horrible. I pass classes only by studying my ass of, but quite honestly I’m terrible at most anything that has to do with actual scientific testing. Plus it has a lot of math sometimes and I suck at math. I can barely do arithmetic in my head.

So I thought, maybe I’ll become a psychologist. Sadly, I apparently am not good at talking to people. Well, at least in the way psychologist’s should. I understand them, but I’m really bad at actually listening and giving helpful advice…or so I’m told. Besides, I get too sad listening to others problems. It hurts me to see other people’s pain so intimately.

Well, then what if I did something else? A doctor! I can be a doctor. Too bad hospitals freak me out and to be honest, I don’t think my own mind would allow me to be a doctor. Plus I won’t lie to you…I’ve never given it an honest try because I sucked so bad at anything that requires deep concentration and a steady hand (I’m a natural klutz).

So then I realized I was having a problem. How can I help someone when all that I tried I was either not good enough at, just plain out got bored with? I was at a complete loss. Everyone was telling me I could do anything and yet I knew it wasn’t true because I did have limitations in my own skills. What was I to do? What could I possibly do to “save” people and make a difference? Write.

It took me a while to come to this conclusion, but I’d always been writing–ever since I was a kid (y’know–on the walls with crayons). So my solution was staring at me in the face. I, who raved about stories that changed my life. I, who always was inspired to write down what I saw around me. I–I could be a writer. All of a sudden, I realized that stories, art–they can make a difference. They can make someone feel not so alone, they can inspire, can heal. Stories have this beautiful power of being able to be whatever you make them. Which is why I decided that I wanted to write stories; beautiful stories, powerful stories, stories that showed the good and the bad of life. Stories that came from somewhere deep and showed a part of the human experience.

Ever since I came to this conclusion, I’ve been able to proudly tell people “I want to be a writer” and when they ask I can tell them easily “because I want to make a difference. I want to write stories that’ll touch people. That’ll give them hope or make them feel less alone.” Because I may not be good at math or science or talking in great crowds, teaching, or more, but that doesn’t mean I can’t change someone’s life. No matter what you do, you can always change someone’s life. Maybe not in the obvious ways, but even just the smallest.

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NaNoWriMo (and queries)

November is here~ and it’s the most wonderful time of the year.

Well, perhaps not the MOST wonderful but certainly an enjoyable time. Having finished up the last round of self-edits on my novel, I decided to do NaNoWriMo this year and I’m really excited about my story. It’s a nice break from fantasy as I dive into a paranormal gothic period piece. It’s a story I’ve been thinking of writing for a good five months but had to sideline since I was focused solely on my fantasy series (and getting it ready to submit).

I’ve never really written a ghost story before–or anything with a gothic background–and so far it’s been an interesting experience. I love writing a multitude of genres but I’ve been so deep into fantasy the past few years that I’ve really forgotten what it’s like to write something else for a change. It’s been fun to explore more of the writing world though and it’s definitely something I recommend. Try not to get set into one genre–try to explore them all! Or at least a reasonable amount of them (okay at the least try more than one). I really hope to finish it by the end of the month but we’ll see. So far I’ve been strangely busy (normally I’m not this busy). I think it’s just the after con hangover. Oh. I haven’t mentioned that yet but I plan to write a blog post on it (and if you follow my instagram you probably already know). I staffed/enjoyed an anime convention over Halloween weekend and it was such a great experience. I love conventions, but more on that at a later time.

Ah! I should probably also update you guys a little on book and writing stuff (since, you know, this blog was originally for book updates haha). So two things. The first is that I had a piece of flash fiction published in Splickety Publishing group’s magazine Havok (their Halloween edition). If you have time you should go read it! There’s a lot of other great authors featured in it as well and it’s a really fun issue. ┬áThe second this is that since editing is finished, I’ve looked into and compiled a list of agents to query for my book. All I need to do is finish writing all the queries and cross my fingers. It’ll probably take some time but I’m hopeful–you always have to be hopeful.

So that’s about it for now. This was a very short update! Is anyone else doing NaNoWriMo? I’d love to hear about it if so!

Don’t forget to seek out adventure!

xxx

 

First Blogpost EVER!

This is the first time I’ve used this blog and sadly there is not much to say. Currently I am still in the process of editing the first book as well as sending it out to a childhood friend who wanted to read it (fun fact: they inspired one of the characters).

Aside from that, I’m taking a publishing lab at my university and we just put on a huge writing conference. Though I was working, I managed to put a flea in one of the agent’s ears and received his business card. Could it lead to endless possibilities? Well maybe not. He’s not a big fan of angels. Oh well. There’s always more to seek out, more to ask about, more to hope will pick up your manuscript.

I’ve also learned quite a bit about querying agents so that’s a plus. I’m going to have to start writing my query letters soon for real. But first I should probably finishing editing the last 110 pages…

…or maybe I’ll get working on that youtube channel I wanted to start up. Yeah. Probably that due to my procrastination tendencies.

That’s all for now.

Don’t forget to seek out adventure!

xxx